It’s ten minutes ’till October first and there is substantial thunder rumbling across the sky. The rain outside my window is splashing against leaves already showing signs of red and yellow; true autumn is but a breath away. It’s the most peaceful sound in the world, rainfall, next to ocean waves. I could listen to it all night long. The thunder is an added bonus, probably the last hurrah of thunder storms for the season.
I try harder each year to appreciate autumn. It’s never been a favorite, actually ranking third out of the four, but that’s only becuase it is the harbinger of winter, standing in solid fourth. It’s not that I don’t like the cooler temperatures or the absolute beauty of autumn – where else can you get colors such as these?? – but winter is just too stark and cold; the personification of death. I’m actually good up until December 24th, then I hold my breath until the first warm breezes appear. (The rain is really coming down now….ahhhhhh). I have to make an extra effort to enjoy the here and now, or it’s gone before I know it. I’ve made it through..well…enough winters that we really don’t need to number them here, and spring eventually dances it’s way in bringing everything back to life. As I get older, appreciating every minute becomes easier…maybe even more desperate, which can lead to a panic – a race for…something…that is supposed to represent the capstone of my life. Maybe I’ve already experienced it and all there is now is time to lean back and enjoy what is; something I’m not particularly good at.
Enough of philosophic waxing for one night. You know what’s fun to do in the rain? (well, besides that). Running. When I used to run becuase that’s what I thought I was supposed to be doing to stay healthy, every so often I’d get caught in a storm. I would just burst out laughing while I ran. That’s the total opposite of my childhood experience. When I was in kindergarten I was deathly afraid of thunderstorms and I got caught in one walking home from school. Completely freaked me out. I carried an umbrella to school for the next four months, no matter what the weather. What a nerd.